Falling

I crashed.
I fell.
It felt like shit.
I was doing so good and then, there's this pit.

A pit of sorrow
That I'm scared to fall into.
I might not come back.
I don't know what to do.

I see her pictures and I cry uncontrollably.
I think of her wisdom and it helps to console me.
I fear for my father.
He's old.
He's so lonely.

She did it all.
Held us together each day.
I miss her so much.
When will this pain go away?!?

written by: ME
April 8, 2007
2 months after my mom passed away