Lost Highway

I saw the new Bon Jovi video, Lost Highway, this morning and the lyrics and symbolism of them truly spoke to me. I have lost my way on my "highway" lately. I'm jumpin' back on, full speed ahead, taking side roads, not looking in that damned rear view mirror! (just a quick glance every once in a while) :)


Lost Highway - Bon Jovi

In my rear view mirror
My life is getting clearer
The sunset sighs and slowly disappears
These trinkets once were treasure
Life changes like the weather
You grow up, grow old or hit the road 'round here
So I drive, watching white lines passing by
With my plastic dashboard Jesus, waiting there to greet us

Hey, hey, I finally found my way
Say goodbye to yesterday
Hit the gas there ain't no brakes on the lost highway
Yeah I'm busting loose, I'm letting go
Out on this open road
It's independence day on this lost highway

I don't know where I'm going
But I know where I've been
Now I'm afraid of going back again
So I drive, years and miles are flying by
And waiting there to great us
Is my plastic dashboard Jesus

Oh patron saint of lonely souls
To tell this boy which way to go
Guide the car, you got the keys
Farewell to mediocrity
Kicking off the cruise-control
And turning up the radio
Got just enough religion
And a half tank of gas come on, let's go

Falling

I crashed.
I fell.
It felt like shit.
I was doing so good and then, there's this pit.

A pit of sorrow
That I'm scared to fall into.
I might not come back.
I don't know what to do.

I see her pictures and I cry uncontrollably.
I think of her wisdom and it helps to console me.
I fear for my father.
He's old.
He's so lonely.

She did it all.
Held us together each day.
I miss her so much.
When will this pain go away?!?

written by: ME
April 8, 2007
2 months after my mom passed away